early morning?

i woke up early today, around 6am. i was hoping to meet someone online. well 6am may be early here, but it's somewhat late over there. 11pm to be exact. and met her i did. but...it was more to a disappointment than spirit lifting.

she was like...not wanting to chat...with monosyllable 'yes, ok, yea, good's i was so hurt (yeps, me hurting myself again) and then there she went to watch a movie. yea, my fault again because it was i who recommended that movie to her. but hey, since it's still so early i waited for her to finish the two and a half hour's show.

i thought she'd be a bit comfortable after the show...but no, it was still the same...she went off to do her stuff, searching for pictures of someone in the movie...and we didn't really chat...

this feeling is damn horrible! someone reminded me a moment ago...things won't always come our way, even if we put effort into it...i guess that is so freaking true for me...all i wanted was just a little attention...

oh well...maybe she's tired? sleepy perhaps? i know all these are self induced...i am the one causing myself this pain. i'll be taking a breather in a mo. i just hope i won't drive too fast...